The Speed of Dark by Elizabeth Moon
Winner of the 2003 Nebula Award (the sci-fi equivalent to the Pulitzer), Elizabeth Moon’s The Speed of Dark centers on Lou, an autistic man who works alongside a cohort of fellow autistics at a large pharmaceutical company. One day, an obnoxious new manager, in a misguided attempt to cut costs, pressures Lou’s cohort to undergo an experimental medical procedure that “cures” autism - with this, they’re forced to consider what undergoing such treatment would mean for their very identity. For a book written in the early 2000s, Moon is quite forward thinking in her awareness of issues that would only come to the forefront decades later - corporations refusing to understand the long term value of accommodating their employees, neurotypical people not taking seriously the opinions of their neurodiverse peers, etc. Lou, as a person, seems to have a good outlook on the shortfalls of the neurotypical world - his narration is often blunt and disarming, in a very funny way. But this is not a book that romanticizes Lou as some sort of neurodivergent rebel - while it does take time to portray Lou as someone who sees the hypocrises of the “normal” world, he also struggles to exist comfortably in it. This all comes to a head after that obnoxious manager is fired for ethics violations - now, they will be given the voluntary choice to undergo the procedure, with no negative consequences if they refuse. Some do, some don’t - we aren’t told Lou’s choice until later, and that choice caught me off guard: he decides to go through with it. We’re told that a primary reason for his choice stems from a childhood dream of working in space, and that someone of his type is unsuited for such a life - further, he argues that people change for any number of reasons, and such a change, when made voluntarily, is a valid one. His decision is not portrayed in an entirely positive or negative light - while we learn that he did accomplish his dream of working in space, he is, in some ways, a new person from what he was - he’s lost touch with his old friends, he enjoys different things, etc. Not surprisingly, this is a divisive ending, and one that I struggled to come to terms with. While I respect Lou for the thoughtfulness of his choice, I couldn’t help but walk away feeling like I was watching Winston Smith learning to love Big Brother, with Lou himself acting as his own O’Brian. It’s entirely possible he could’ve found success working in space while remaining autistic - why the two should be seen as mutually exclusive is never stated - but he’s been conditioned to accept otherwise. It isn’t hard for a reader to place the blame on the outside world for forcing Lou to believe this - Moon spent most of the book in portraying its hostility. Whether it’s corporate bigwigs who care for nothing outside a positive value on their balance sheet, neurotypical people who see themselves as the final authority for how the “real world” should work, hostile people resentful of the “special treatment” autistics receive - this is not a world that feels very welcoming to those who fall outside the straight and narrow. This is punctuated further by the fact that we are told that science has found a way to eliminate autism on the genetic level for all newborns - Lou and his cohort are basically the last generation of adult autistics. Any society that views a normally occurring divergence in the human neurotype as something to be genetically corrected is probably not going to be sympathetic to your existence. For Lou - as for some others in his cohort - the positives just outweighed the negatives, and it’s as simple as that. Perhaps this new Lou sees his choice as the correct one, and I can’t take that away from him. However, as I said before, it’s hard for me to view it positively. You’re going to face challenges whether you’re neurotypical or autistic - furthermore, the onus should not be on you to change when so many of those challenges are caused by others failing to take into account that differences within the human population are normal, and should be celebrated. Lou felt the choice he made was the right one - personally, I’d rather live in a world where people like Lou would never have to make such a choice.